id like to say thanks to the people who helped me get through the past 2 weeks.
harmony cromwell
regina spektor cuz her voice is amazing
say anything cuz theyre cute
tracey seipp
miwa yokoooyamaaaa (sp)

u guys are amazing friends and u knew what to say and what to do to help me out. u guys are my go to people for problems cuz i can trust u, and u really care about me. i want to be the go to person if any of u have problems cuz i love u guys so much and i wannnt to help u guys out.

                                    "ill look out for u"

                                                           i <3 say anything.and u

ben kweller i love.
im lacking so much sleep. this weekend has been very eventful and i wish i could put some pictures of everything but it seems everyones stopped taking pictures which is sad.

ive done a lot in the past few days and i feel good.
i went to youth group and played walleyball badly.
went to mcdonalds with aki jenny ernest and laurene. we saw a car accident.
went to ye wons baby shower and lots of cute things and many woman with being overly cutened by little baby things.
slept over at laurenes and watched crazyyy moviessss. saved and about adam
we woke up and ate healthy cereal and went to church
then chipotle and got fatfat

a relationship was put back together.

lauren left

erik left

here we go again

btw: my birthdays totally in 23 days. Febuary 6th babies.dont forget it.

How were everyones Thanksgivings?
Mine was delicious. I never liked turkey untill thursday.

 
I'm not good at putting my feelings into words. And that's how I feel.

Ok. I love autumn. And sometimes I think I get too excited. Im already excited about Christmas. And I'm not going to pretend like I don't usually only get excited because of presents. I love presents. But this year I just need Christmas. I need the feeling. The warmth. The love. The care free love. everyone changes around Christmas. I do love getting gifts and I love the happiness of Christmas, but my favorite part of Christmas is getting people gifts that they love. When they open it and they can't beleive you got that for them. I hate giving something to someone that isn't sentimental. I do it sometimes when I can't think, but I dont like it. I want people to feel it in their heart when they get it. To be surprised and touched.
I love waking up in the morning and hearing laughter downstairs and smelling pancakes. Im so warm and comfortale under my bed, and it snowed all night. When I get out of bed, my feet are cold from the hard wood floor, but instantly warmed by cozy socks. I walk downstairs and my families happy to see me. The christmas tree lights are shining and twinkling and reflecting the snow outside. There are 6 more presents placed gently under the tree.

I can't wait for that feeling. It only comes once a year and only lasts for a week.

Im trying not to get ahead of myself, but I watched White Christmas today and I just wanted to write what I was feeling in my head, where someone would see it and maybe enjoy the thought themselves.

Hey bitches. (say in mexican accent)

Xanga is so stupid. so is myspace. i hate them all. i still use them but i hate them. its kinda like, that person who ur "friends" with but u dont enjoy talking to them and the only reason u do talk to them is because everyone else talks to them, and likes them.

So skools starting and im gonna be a sophmore. lame.
"whats the most exciting thing about being a sophmore?"
not being a freshman.-thats the truth

my parents do yoga, and im fat. but so are they so its ok. and that motha fucka just rhymed. i reall dont care what i right cuz xanga is deserted. poor poor xanga. i would pet u if u were a noun.

speaking of petting...

i want THAT ONE!

they're fucknig adorable.